At 8.00 o’clock, I prepare the bed for Widad to sleep such as putting a few pillows around her favorite spot. I hug her, bring her inside our bedroom, and put her head on my arm. I close the lamp to avoid her eyes from getting active, just to make her feel sleepy. She often falls asleep about 20-30 minutes later.
Her sleepiness shows some signals around 8.00 pm:
- She plays and cries, play and cries again.
- Or cries then rub her eyes.
- She can’t stop crying even I hug her to comfort her (this is my favorite cue)
I learn that we need sleeping routine to help baby Widad recognizes sleeping schedule. So when she gets in the dark with the voice of reciting Al-Quran (mp3 from my iPod), she knows that it’s time to sleep and then she closes her eyes. She, usually, doesn’t take much time to fall asleep.
On certain times, she couldn’t sleep and she cries a lot. My heart breaks like a glass when she did that. Probably, she has been sleeping all day long and consequently, her brain is still active through the night. She often scratches my arm with her nail, and my skin burns with a few lines of small marks because I always forget I cut her long nail.
Sometimes, I want to left her on the bed and surfing the internet on iPad, and let her finds her own way to fall asleep without rocking her on my arm.
Frustration darkens my decisions, but I always think twice before I make something irresponsible.